I wrote my grandfather a letter today. Him and my father are estranged because my father suppresses his feelings about issues stemming from the 70’s. I have an interesting family. Everyone pretends like they’re robots and can’t feel anything while they’re bottling up everything on the inside. That’s why they’re all so fucked up.

Any who, I hope my grandfather responds. I’d like to have a relationship/talk to him while I still have the chance. Old age freaks me out. I’m sincerely always frightened my grandparents (mom’s side) are going to die at a moment’s notice, and that makes me anxious (not in the good way) and sad at the same time, and I’m really really close to them. I guess what I’m getting at is, I know my dad’s stepfather across the country better than I know his actual father (who lives in the state next to me). I just don’t want him to die without him at least acknowledging me.

Oh my, Kyle Worthington. How I’m going to miss thee. Reading what you wrote in my yearbook just makes me a bazillion times more ready to marry you the second you turn 18. Goodness, what on earth am I going to do without seeing this boy everyday for the rest of my life?

It’s ironic how we crave the attention of those who treat us with such a deficiency.

And then they played “We Are Young” by that cool group fun.

Funny Story

So I turned on Gossip Girl for the first time in months, and it was the middle of an episode. Guess who I saw? Bart Bass. Apparently he’s alive. Lol. This is better than that time on OTH when that nanny Carrie kept trying to kill Dan but he wouldn’t die.